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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 18:36:27 GMT -5
He bit his lip, "If it would keep you with me i would, but really i would rather wait . . . just a little longer" he said and pulled him into a hug.
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 20:49:00 GMT -5
He let the man hug him. He just looked down, seeing thier naked bodies together. "You should have said so before we started having sex.", he said.
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 21:04:43 GMT -5
He smiled, "Do you reget it?" he asked a bit sadly. He really wanted the other boy to love his first time and to always treasure it.
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 21:48:36 GMT -5
"No, I wouldn't trade it for the world but you should have told me I wouldn't get to return the favor.
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 21:58:39 GMT -5
He bit his lip and hugged him close, "I'm sorry" he whispered, "I-I am just not ready" he said softly. He knew that Ryan would be the one to take it but he wanted it to be a little more perfect for him.
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 22:02:19 GMT -5
He stepped out of the hug and looked down. "But you can take me...", he said and looked at him. He thought this one was different. Was he wrong. "I---gotta get to my dorm.", he said and bit his lip, his naked body turning around and walking towards his room.
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 22:19:06 GMT -5
"No, Ryan please stop" he said and walked out with him. Wondering what he meant by that seeing as they lived together, where would he go? He reached out for his arm, "I want you, i need you please, i really like you, i really--" he stoped there before he said love. "Ryan, please don't, i didn't go on a date so i could just take you, please, believe me, i justed wanted to get to know you, to date you" he said. He was going to give himself to Ryan he just new it but he wanted to be in love first. And he was very close to it.
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 22:30:31 GMT -5
He nodded his head adn closed his eyes. "Well why dont you try getting to know me vertically?", hea sked and looked at him, clearly hurt. His baby blue eyes turned watery as he walked up the stairs that led to his own dorm. Their room was seperated.
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 22:35:11 GMT -5
He sighed, he didn't even understand what he did right. He had, he spent the night with him and they talked. He didn't even want to have sex with him in the first place. He layed down on his bed, giving up. There was no point Ryan clearly didn't want anythign to do with him.
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 22:53:26 GMT -5
(making it hard? hehe)
Ryan ran up the steps, flopping on his bed after putting boxers on. It just figured that this would happen to him.
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 22:56:54 GMT -5
He groaned and stood up and walked up stairs and sat down next to him. "lets talk, i think we need to talk about this, be mature about this" he said softly looking at him. He really was faling in love with him, but he didn't know if he wanted to tell him. If Ryan wanted to take him he would let him right here right now.
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 23:31:56 GMT -5
"I am being mature--you're the one that thinks its okay to take someone then turn around and say that they cant return the favor"
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 23:38:20 GMT -5
"You can take me, you can" he said and went over to him and took his hands in his own, "I lo-I would love for you to take me" he said and looked at him, "Please" he said and stroked his hand softrly
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Post by Ryan Nikolas on Jan 8, 2008 23:39:59 GMT -5
[he shouldn't be saying or thinking the l-word for a long time]
Looking at him, he bit his lip. "Am I supposed to believe you changed your mind that fast?"
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Post by Julian Jacobs on Jan 8, 2008 23:53:00 GMT -5
-i know thats why he didn't-
"I didn't change my mind, i was just scared. And i know how much this means to you, and i know im ready, i was just scared" he said and looked down ashamed of it.
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